Happy Now

I haven’t written much about Nick’s college application process.  (If you’re following along, you may remember that I committed to pray more and speak (nag, cajole, hound) less.)  It worked. 🙂

Nick submitted applications to three schools in time to meet their early deadlines.  He approached the task with the same calm confidence with which he does most things, wrote killer essays (really, so good!) and commented when he finished that he had thought it was going to be more difficult.

So we have entered into that “almost blissful” part of senior year when there are no immediate decisions to make and it seems like graduation is still a long, long way off. I love picturing his applications “working their magic” in the electronic world of admissions offices across North Carolina.

Every once in awhile, I let myself think about how difficult it will be to not have him around next fall.  I allow a tiny bit of the sadness to creep in for just a small moment.   Nick notices, and asks, “What?” and I usually answer, “Just thinking about how much I love you.”  Most of the time, though, I am fully committed to enjoying every minute of “now.”  There will be plenty of time for “later” – later.